Between the Sheets

J had no idea how he would feel with just Paul in the room, as he hadn’t really paid that much attention to Paul when we were all together. He was too busy trying to overcome his repulsion of Paul’s partner and the overwhelming feeling that he was “taking one for the team.�?

But, we had for some time entertained the idea of another man in our bed. I’d written fantasies trying to entice J and he’d let me post some ads looking for prospects. Ultimately, my logic of playing with someone we were already acquainted with held up.

“How well would you say you’re ‘acquainted’ with Paul at this point?�?

“I have spoken with him a great deal. I have a fondness for him. I care about him.�?

“Do you love him?�?

“There are some things about him that I love, artistically speaking. But, to be frank, I know not much beyond that at this point.�?

“That makes me uncomfortable. This isn’t what we said we were looking for.�?

“I know. In some ways it is though. It’s the emotional connection with a play partner that we wanted.�?

“No, you have that. I have only an emotional connection with you.�?

“I still think it’s worth exploring. My focus would always be you. I love you more than anything, darling.�?

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“I began an interesting conversation last night with J…another about you…trying to help him understand what I feel for you, how I’m capable of it, what that means for his role in my life….�?

“He will go along for the ride because he loves you…not because he can love as you do.�?

“Then that is cruel of me…I am not encouraging his growth as a lover should…but rather dragging him along thru what is the very complexity of our love…there is a complexity to it that I don’t think we honor though with these ramblings of our wants…especially when you and I are involved with others who don’t hold our same views on these things…�?

My experience with Paul had been so cursory up to this point. We had been speaking constantly via email, and J knew this. But, I told J, I had no idea if there would be any hope of rekindling something between the three of us unless we first saw him again in a platonic setting. I wanted to know how we all behaved as friends before we jumped into bed this time. I also wanted to know if my growing feelings for Paul would stand out in the room with the three of us as the elephant no one could get ’round.

“I was thrilled last night to finally be able to reveal my capacity to love to J…though he hesitated at first, he was ultimately accepting of it…it was such a relief to be able to completely tell him how much I care for you…so openly… for me, that was the final piece…�?

“Can I see you alone tonight? I do not feel up to being with J…not because of him…but because my emotions are so raw…likely to break down the moment I see you.�?

As luck would have it, Paul could be in the City Friday evening. J was out of town on business. I was already planning on meeting a girlfriend for drinks, so I asked J if I might see Paul as well.

The last, part of this tale will be posted by late this evening…

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